I AM LOST I can’t seem to change I keep repeating my old mistakes Life isn’t changing fast enough Change is slow I’ll be 50 before I’ve got anywhere I may only live to 80. I’m over half way there I don’t have the confidence anymore No one is going to find me attractive I…
Tag: anxiety
Sunday Blues
Sundays are often an odd experience for me. I struggle with having to iron shirts and prep for the week ahead. Somehow it’s always felt like I’m starting work right then and there. I’ve got a challenging week ahead. I’m travelling to see a client on Tuesday and Wednesday this week. Not normally an issue,…
Another appointment, and thinking about a decision
I’m off to another appointment this morning, for a tooth extraction and root canal. They are related to damage the granuloma caused. I had a decent nights sleep, but woke with some odd thoughts. I look at my life and, the loss, the depression, work etc., and can’t stop thinking that refusing any treatment might…
On a bus to destiny.
I’m sat on the bus to the hospital to get my results. Will the granuloma be cancerous? What’s occupying my mind right now is not the diagnosis but what happens after. Do I; Cry Get on with the next steps Go on a three day bender? Get angry Find God? Enact my revenge? Will it…
Hospital Waiting Rooms
Sitting in the waiting room at King’s College Hospital in London, and observing my surroundings, I am amused, but not surprisingly reassured that all hospital waiting rooms are basically the same. Whenever you spend time in a waiting room you will find Rows of uncomfortable chairs bolted to the floor. A badly behaved child, accompanied…
Nothing to say this week…
I have nothing really to say this week as I’m building up to a big rant about how my education has affected my mental health. I have been exploring this with my therapist and I’ve been working on a post for the last week. I’m otherwise well and will to be popping over to Wale…
Suffering from FailPlan2020
During the last week, I’ve been dealing with prep for a major demonstration/meeting at work as well as the changes to my commute inflicted by RailPlan2020. I would hesitate to call it a plan, very little seemed to have been communicated to station staff, train drivers and commuters alike. Since the start of the new…
My first week without Facebook
Last week I made the decision to stop using Facebook. It was negatively affecting my mental health. So far, its been surprisingly easy. I have caught myself searching for the app, I’ve certainly been tempted, but I’ve managed to keep myself away from it. One thing I noticed during the week was how frequently I…
Bye Bye Facebook
I discussed coming off facebook with a mate over the weekend and decided it’s worth trying. I know that there is a lot of talk about the harmful effects of social media these days, I did not even start to think about how it might be affecting me. So, as of yesterday afternoon I have…
[Diet Update] Day 7 – Weigh In!
So how’d it go? The first week has gone well. None of the food was repulsive, in fact, it has been a bit of a surprise to find that the Jane Plan food is delicious. I’ve lost over 2kgs, which is precisely what I was looking for. OK, I have 24 to go (around 4st…
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