Another appointment, and thinking about a decision

I’m off to another appointment this morning, for a tooth extraction and root canal. They are related to damage the granuloma caused.

I had a decent nights sleep, but woke with some odd thoughts.

I look at my life and, the loss, the depression, work etc., and can’t stop thinking that refusing any treatment might be for the best in the long run.

Today, all I see in my future are increasing numbers of medical issues, loneliness and constant low mood. Why put myself through this?

Don’t be concerned, I’m not suicidal, I just have a big decision to make.

Of course if it’s good news on the 15th that opens up another question, how can things be improved, how can I be really, truly happy.

Ah well, today my main worry is making sure I get enough anisthetic and pain relief. Bring on the lidocaine!

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