ugly day – ơŋɛ ƈཞąʑყ ƈơơƙ

I, I, I.

I AM LOST I can’t seem to change I keep repeating my old mistakes Life isn’t changing fast enough Change is slow I’ll be 50 before I’ve got anywhere I may only live to 80. I’m over half way there I don’t have the confidence anymore No one is going to find me attractive I…

I’m struggling at the moment

I’m struggling, really struggling at the moment. It was my birthday during the week, it often difficult for me. It reminds me of time passing, the loss I’ve experienced and so much more. I have been sleeping too much, eating too much and I cannot seem to feel anything positive. The intrusive thoughts are getting…

Another appointment, and thinking about a decision

I’m off to another appointment this morning, for a tooth extraction and root canal. They are related to damage the granuloma caused. I had a decent nights sleep, but woke with some odd thoughts. I look at my life and, the loss, the depression, work etc., and can’t stop thinking that refusing any treatment might…

Another one in the mix

Well, I’ve had a bad few days. My anxiety has been playing up. After I moved into my new place I had lots of things to do, the last week or so things had settled down, I had started to feel normal. But that came crashing down when I realised I was returning to my old…