Small PrintIf you are a friend that may have worked out who One ‘Crazy’ Cook is, please don’t worry, I’m ok talking about it. I will talk to you about it in person when I’m ready. I don’t need you to reach out. It was a long long time ago, I was 19, it’s been…
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Depression isn’t…
Depression isn’t simply feeling ‘sad’ or ‘down.’ It’s waking up and all of the colors of the world are faded. It’s feeling nothing and everything at once. It’s nothing and everything at once. It’s trying to go about your daily life while wearing an extremely heavy lead outfit. It’s your mind telling you that things…
I’m struggling at the moment
I’m struggling, really struggling at the moment. It was my birthday during the week, it often difficult for me. It reminds me of time passing, the loss I’ve experienced and so much more. I have been sleeping too much, eating too much and I cannot seem to feel anything positive. The intrusive thoughts are getting…
More than Monday Morning Blues?
I’ve come to accept the Monday morning blues as something that is normal. I am though starting to think that there is something else behind why I find I am affected by them in such an extreme way. OK, so I know I don’t have ovaries, but this is me on a nightly basis. I…
It’s not that cancer, but, it might be this one…
I have just returned from my visit to the hospital to see my consultant. I know know that the granuloma isn’t the ‘common‘ cancer they expected. See On a bus to destiny. This, I guess, is good news. Except, it might be a rarer type of cancer, and the tests for that take longer….
On a bus to destiny.
I’m sat on the bus to the hospital to get my results. Will the granuloma be cancerous? What’s occupying my mind right now is not the diagnosis but what happens after. Do I; Cry Get on with the next steps Go on a three day bender? Get angry Find God? Enact my revenge? Will it…
Sundays
Its Sunday afternoon, its cooler than expected. I have a pre-op assessment tomorrow. I feel lonely. Something that strikes me as odd though is that I dont want to be around people. In fact having to deal with people tomorrow concerns me. I know I’ll be fine, and that work in the morning will be…
Some Relief
After a morning of phone around several medical professionals and being on-hold with a variety of booking lines I now have my dates for the cancer tests. The 4th October I can tell you that I feel a sense of relief that they are actually booked. Hopefully, I can then get some antibiotics to deal…
Bye Bye Facebook
I discussed coming off facebook with a mate over the weekend and decided it’s worth trying. I know that there is a lot of talk about the harmful effects of social media these days, I did not even start to think about how it might be affecting me. So, as of yesterday afternoon I have…
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