I think I was raped

Small PrintIf you are a friend that may have worked out who One ‘Crazy’ Cook is, please don’t worry, I’m ok talking about it. I will talk to you about it in person when I’m ready. I don’t need you to reach out. It was a long long time ago, I was 19, it’s been…

Depression isn’t…

Depression isn’t simply feeling ‘sad’ or ‘down.’ It’s waking up and all of the colors of the world are faded. It’s feeling nothing and everything at once. It’s nothing and everything at once. It’s trying to go about your daily life while wearing an extremely heavy lead outfit. It’s your mind telling you that things…

I, I, I.

I AM LOST I can’t seem to change I keep repeating my old mistakes Life isn’t changing fast enough Change is slow I’ll be 50 before I’ve got anywhere I may only live to 80. I’m over half way there I don’t have the confidence anymore No one is going to find me attractive I…

I’m struggling at the moment

I’m struggling, really struggling at the moment. It was my birthday during the week, it often difficult for me. It reminds me of time passing, the loss I’ve experienced and so much more. I have been sleeping too much, eating too much and I cannot seem to feel anything positive. The intrusive thoughts are getting…

Good News for us Hippies!

Most hip and knee replacements ‘last longer than thought’ Eight out of 10 knee replacements and six out of 10 hip replacements last as long as 25 years, says a large study from the University of Bristol. Philippa Roxby, Health reporter, BBC News I have had two hip replacements, so this is good news for…

Adventures in Tattoo’s

Tonight I’m off to meet a new tattoo artist to plan the work on my first new piece in 5 years. I’m going along with a mate who is also having some work done. I’ve chosen to go with King of Hearts in London. We were really impressed when we popped into the shop on…

[27/10] Weigh In – The Slow Down

Notes Not much change this week. Diets often stall. I’m not too worried. Weight 123kg Having used this diet before I have known that around this time my progress my stall. BUT, I’m not worried about it. Stalling is par for the course. Plus, it’s not totally stalling, I’ve lost a little bit, and I’m…

More than Monday Morning Blues?

I’ve come to accept the Monday morning blues as something that is normal. I am though starting to think that there is something else behind why I find I am affected by them in such an extreme way. OK, so I know I don’t have ovaries, but this is me on a nightly basis. I…

The Big (not so) Beautiful Lie

Originally posted on LoveKarmaFood:
When you are first diagnosed with chronic illness/pain, you are very quickly acquainted with dread and fear which are inextricably linked, in addition to overwhelming anxiety. Chronic illness and pain are something which are uniquely foreign to that which we are accustom to. These are not the flu or a cold,…

[20/10] Weigh In – 5Kg down

Notes 5kg down Weight 123.3kg So I’m down 5kg, which is encouraging. I haven’t as yet given in to any cravings. One thing that I’ve noticed is I’ve not had many cravings this time around. After the progress meter, I’ve included a couple of stats. Lbs Stones Kg Total Loss 12 0.83 5 Avg. Weekly…