I managed to have a nice quiet weekend. It’s just coming up to 9pm on Sunday evening and while I’m hopeful that this next week will be OK, but, my anxiety is making me feel like this is the calm before the storm.

I have a Doctors appointment this week to talk about my progress with my depression and medication. What I have learnt in the last few weeks when I’ve had good days, is that my depression is the cause of my anxiety, not the other way around.

I’ve thought this for some time. I wish I could convince the doctor that its the anxiety they need to treat with medication, not the depression (or maybe as well as).

I’ve tried in the past and other than my current medication the GP will only resort to suggesting CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy). Don’t get me wrong, CBT is great, but in my experience, it’s just a sticking plaster, when guided by an expert it’s fantastic, but in all honesty, those 4-6 sessions provided by the NHS are never enough.

I will be glad when Wednesday comes, and I just hope that I can have the force of will to tell the GP when I want/need.

Also, work better sort itself out, I’ve not had such a bad week since I was very poorly with my hips and depression.

On a positive note, I have a new recipe that I’ve been working on that I will share with you later in the week.

Wish me luck!